Musing's of a Wandering Mind.......

Today 11-Dec-21 would have been our 10 th marriage anniversary, which we both were really looking forward to. Specially since this would have been our first anniversary with our baby. We would have finally graduated from the couple to being 3 members in the family. So, in this post I will be sharing some of the beautiful memories of our special day. I was reading a book and came across the Chinese concept of “Yuanfen” which essentially means “It is the force of destiny that causes two lives to cross paths in mysterious ways!”. Because if you look at our relationship, it truly was a force of destiny that brought us together, being in two different cities. Maybe we do have some past life connection that you came in life. As you can see in the picture on the side, how it all started with a scrap (message) in Orkut. So that’s how we became from friends. This was the pre-WhatsApp era so we used to look forward to the weekends when we both used to at home (we both were in hostel) and coul

Pregnancy Days!! I am writing this blog as I wanted to capture the last 8 months of our relationship specially when we came to know that we are going to be parents, many of the things you do know, but thought to write it down for memories sake. However, during the initial days of her passing, I was really very angry at God and wished that if she hadn’t got pregnant, then maybe things would have been different. She would not have visited India during the peak of COVID second wave or she could have taken the vaccine. Vaccines were allowed for pregnant women very late. But I feel now that I should see the positive side of things and I am happy that I could experience at least the pregnancy part with you. It is really difficult to put the feelings into words, but I definitely would like to try. Yes, I will never get to know, how we would have been as parents, how you would be like a mother. I still remember the morning of 16th Nov when you woke me up from sleep and informed me that you are

It’s been 3 months since my wife Achu left me for heavenly abode and it has been a very difficult 3 months. I am just penning my thoughts down on the whole grieving process and the traumatic 3 months. The post is a bit jumbled up but do bear with me.  The initial few days, I was in so much shock and pain. I just couldn’t accept that I won’t be able to see, hear or touch you again. I really miss the way you used to call me “Eta” or when I used to call you Achukutty you would reply “Enthoo”. Achu my love, I miss your beautiful smile and all the jokes you used to crack. I miss pampering you, our evening walks, where we used to hold hands and walk. You were my walking radio, always chattering away. Really miss talking to her and sharing all the things which happened during the day. Now when you realize that you can’t just pick up the phone and hear her voice, it’s too painful. We always used to hug or hold hands when going to sleep. And I used to tell her hugging a pillow is not the same a